‘This Feels very Personal‘ - Improving my Diet - Part 3.

I think I’ve developed my own avoidance register.

I went to the shop twice on Monday, I tend to disguise the facts of the case.

‘I’m just going for a run!’ I says.

It’s true.

But the run takes me past the shop. I return with chocolate and diet coke. And I hope nobody sees when I slip back in. So as to not feel the shame of it.

I go out again ‘for a run’.

I bought a dairy milk bar in addition to a meal deal: a diet coke, a millionaire shortbread snack and a Caesar salad sandwich.

I think one thing that could help is remembering that God is watching. He knows this isn’t what I should be doing.

So maybe I could share a prayer? I’m going to pray on this as I type this.

Dear Lord,

I repent for my sins, please accept this repentence.

Please help me to be grateful for this food, not to squander it, and instead to give thanks for this bounty.

Lord, we both know this was gluttony. A higher order sin.

Please help me to do better going forward. Help me to contribute to others as opposed to consuming. Help me to walk the path of righteousness and not self-indulgence.

Lord, please bless all those who are suffering and need your support. Please give to them their share of bread, and give to me the wherewithal to use my privilage productively, and not obsessively squander those resources granted to me.

I know I could be better Lord, please guide me.

In Jesus’ name,

Amen.

This feels very personal to be shoving online. That’s the point though.

Sincerely,

Jed.